A Very Familiar Feeling…

The house is nearly empty

I remember when Scott and Mariah and me were living in our 500 square foot cottage in the back of our property while we built our house. How could I forget, right? The three of us and two indoor cats stuffed into 500 square feet for 2 years, yikes! By the time the house was at the very least , air tight and water tight, I was itchin’ to get back in there ASAP! I didn’t care that most of the house was only plywood subfloor , and there were no cabinets ( boy, was that a mistake to let him get side tracked before our project was completed! ) I just wanted to move in soooooo badly. Now, fast forward about 8 or 9 years later and I just can’t wait to get moved OUT! My this is a very familiar feeling , indeed.

I was thinking about this as we were loading up the truck with yet another load of furniture to put in our storage space. I feel a sense of relief with each load of things exiting our house. Isn’t it funny. that’s the exact way I felt way back when all that stuff was being brought ‘into’ the house. Back when we were moving into the house, my sense of urgency was a reaction to the stress and anxiety caused by the tight quarters we were stuck living in. Moving into the house and out of the tiny little cottage was the answer back then. After we were all settled in our more spacious house, we were much more comfortable. Change was what we needed and timing was right. Hence the current feeling of familiarity , only backwards. This time we are not moving in order to escape the tight confines of a building but the tight confines of the life we are living here. We are ready to begin again in a place where we can not only experience and learn about a different culture but hopefully a different way of living our lives. Maybe instead of spending so much of our time and energy making money to support our lifestyle, we will learn to live more simplistically and have more energy for people and for each other as well as energy to pursue interests and make worthwhile contributions to our new community.

Building our life here has been rewarding on so many levels and we have been happy. We are not running away from any particular thing that causes us unhappiness. I think we are really looking forward to building something new and to building it together, just like we built our house together. Something , like this house , that we are proud of and that is a reflection of us and of what a great team we are. I’m ready to move into our new life , where there is more room for spreading our wings . Yep, I’m feeling anxious to get outta this house not because I don’t like it but because it’s just time to go.